Not Broken

I stared myself down in the mirror this morning. Who I saw was none other than me. A beautiful woman with many talents and a heart of pure gold. A woman who has allowed many people to walk over her and tell her that she is not good enough. I saw a woman who I began to dislike. A woman who has allowed herself to be beaten by the system. A woman who who has allowed her children to get away with things that no child should get away with. A woman who had lost her faith in God.
For over a year I have been put down and made a mockery of. I have lost total control of the life that I once knew. Daily, I am told NO. Daily, I am told you're totally good enough, but you don't fit in with the culture of our company. I have been threatened with losing my children. I have had to make drastic lifestyle changes. I have become insecure. I no longer felt beautiful. I believe that I have no self worth. Depression has set in and all hope has been lost. My heart is so heavy and I feel like giving up.
I am so beat down...
...However, I am not defeated. I am very optimistic. Prayerful. Hopeful. I have regained my faith and Trust in God. I still don't have complete control but I'm working on that also. I am no longer the woman that I saw in the mirror this morning. My faith was restored a while ago, but the woman remained... She is now gone. The Samara that everyone used to know is now back. The strong independent Samara. The woman that Maurice Vincent fell in love with. The insecure Samara has packed her bags and moved on.
I am not Broken!