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Who can I turn to?

So, what is a friend? A friend, in my book, is someone that you can depend on, NO MATTER WHAT! I guess I really don't have a s many as I thought! In desperate times, I have only a few choice individuals that I can call on when I need them. Those few choice people I will tell my inner, most deepest thoughts, my darkest secrets, my most intimate encounters, only because I know they will go to their graves with what we've discussed.

I have been reaching out to you recently and I have yet to hear a response from you! I just need to talk, but I can see now that I am not as important to you as you are to me. Some of this stuff is detrimental to my health if I hold on to it, but I have no other choice. You have your own issues...

Why do we have friends? Why isn't everyone, that we come into contact with, considered an associate? Why do we trust people with our secrets? Tell me truthfully, are we truly friends or am I just so naive that I can't tell the difference?

I'm tired of trying to pinpoint who I can and can't trust. Let's cut to the chase... I consider you a friend, a confidant... so where in the hell are you when I need you?

WTF part 2

Ok, I'm cool with raising my kids alone... been doing it for 15 years without any assistance...Government or otherwise. I have 4 kids and 3 kids father's... Shit happens!

My oldest will be 15 on 11/26, My baby girl is 11 and my boys are 7 and 3. Needless to say, my boys have the same father!

My oldest daughter's father, we'll call him Earl, hasn't paid a lick of child support since the day my baby was born. He is over &80,000 in arrears. He has recently began receiving SSA & SSI benefits and guess what... My baby isn't getting any of that! Did I fail to mention that he has 3 other children, all of which are boys, and a wife? They're benefiting, but not his oldest child... WTF??? We went to court a few days ago, about this situation... The DA subpoenaed me, I didn't initiate this. They also advised me to go to the Social security Administration and file a claim on my daughter's behalf, which I did. Earl was shocked that I did that and he never advised the courts that he has a wife and children... he has to pay $93/mo in child support including arrears... he told the judge and the DA "I would rather have visitation instead of pay child support"! WTF!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

My youngest girl's father, we'll call him Robert, last saw her when she was 2 years old. He picked her up for the weekend and took her to his mother's funeral... That was the last time that he saw her. He signed away his parental rights. He was married when she was conceived and divorced shortly after, only to remarry and have another child. As I mentioned earlier, she is 11 years old, she will be 12 3/1, so she is questioning where he is... I track down his Ex-wife and have her contact him... The first thing that ignorant mutha-fucka says is "We need to get a blood test"! WTF!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?... Nigga fuck you! You didn't have any doubt when she was a baby, now you wanna be a jerk! Kiss my natural yellow ass!

Now this ex-husband of mine, we'll call him Johnny, has custody of our oldest son and I have custody of our youngest son. He has our boy on public assistance which required me to pay $733/mo in child support... to him, but he paid me nothing! WTF!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Not even the baby's daycare bill which is now $597/mo.

I'm just saying, I really know how to pick em'!

Family will always be the first to betray you!

This feeling that I am feeling is numbing. There is no other way to describe it. After giving her life and nurturing her for 11 years, this is the thanks that I get.

All of the things that you have done to me, the drama, the pain... the lies, the deceit... and with all of this I've done nothing but give you love. This, my loving daughter, is how you repay me...

First you betray me.... why? Because you were upset with me? Because you got a spanking? Are you kidding me??? You risk my and your freedom and the freedom of your sister and brother because you were upset with me because you got a spanking! You should be glad that I care enough to dicipline you. Some kids don't have parents that care enough to do anything.

Then, you tell the police and CPS that I bruised you and you are afraid to come home. Don't be afraid to come home sweetie! Home is the last place you should be afraid to go... however, The Children's Receiving Home is where you should be afraid to go... the people there don't give a shit about you. All they're gonna do is place you with a family that doesn't care about you and they'll get paid to care for you...with just the basics... food and shelter.

You need to remember that there is no love like a mother's love... and you've pretty much just pissed that away!


Mommy!

What's in it for me?

Why do I go thru the extremes of pleasing everyone? Why do I waste my time trying to make things right? No one even really cares about the things that I do... I pretty much just do because it's routine and because it's expected. I've loved and I've lost...

I try to please my man, but he's only into himself. I can barely get him to get off of his game long enough to hug me... I do everything for him and then some. I love him with all of my being but sometimes I wonder, is it worth it?

My kids are my life and I get really tired of trying to please them... I provide for them, I love them wholeheartedly and all I get in return is back talk and attitude... lies and anything else.

Sometimes I just want to call it quits. I'm tired of doing for everyone else. Why can't someone just do for me for once?

All I want is for someone to show me a little affection. To be there for me emotionally. I want to be held. Looked at as if I am the most beautiful woman in the world to them. I want to be told how beautiful I am, or how beautiful he thinks I am. I am just ready to be given everything that I give... 100%!

Why do I do all that I do?

What's in it for me?

Love - Musiq

Love
So many things I've got to tell you
But I'm afraid I dont know how
'Cause there's a possibility uou'll look at me differently

Love
Ever since the first moment I spoke your name
From then on I knew that by you being in my life
Things were destined to change cause

Love
So many people use your name in vain
Love
Those have faith in you sometimes go astray
Love
Through all the ups and downs the joy and hurt
Love
For better or worse I still will choose you first

Many days I've longed for you
Wanting you
Hoping for the chance to get to know you
Longing for your kiss
For your touch, your feel, your essence
Many nights I've cried from the things you do
Felt like I could die from the thought of losing you
I know that you're real
With no doubts and no fears
And no questions

At first you didnt mean that much to me
But now I know that youre all I need
The world looks so brand new to me
Now that I found love
Everyday I live for you
And everything that I do I do it for you
What I say is how I feel so believe it's true
You got to know Im true

Second Time Around Shalamar

I know you come a long way, baby
But you don't need that heart of stone, no
You proved that you could do it, do it, baby
You could make it on your own
But you can't keep runnin' away from love
'Cause the first one let you down, no, no, no
And though others try to satisfy you, baby
With me true love can still be found
Love can still be found

(The second time around)Ooh, the second time is so much better, baby
(The second time around)And I'll make it better than the first time

You know I really love you
And I paid for my mistakes, yes, I did, girl
The more I try to hide my feelings, baby
This old heart gets in the way
And love won't let me wait

(The second time around)Girl, with me it's better than the first time
(The second time around)Let's do it one more time, say it again
(The second time around)All that I've been through
I'll do it again just as long as I'm with you
(The second time around)Haaaaaa, the second time

I'll make it so good to you, babe
I make it so good to you
Not like the first time(Not like the first time)
Not like the first time(Not like the first time)
Not like the first time
Talking 'bout the second time
Not like the first time(Not like the first time)
Not like the first time(Not like the first time)
Not like the first time
Talking 'bout the second time

You can't keep runnin' away from love
'Cause the first one let you down
And though others try to satisfy you, baby
With me true love can still be found

(The second time around)I'm gonna keep you mine the second time, baby
(The second time around)I'll know what to doJust as long as I'm with you
(The second time around)Do it one more time, say it again
The second time around

Dangerously In Love - Beyonce

I love you...
Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thoughts of all my love for you sometimes it makes me wanna cry
I realize all of my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world To love, to hold
To feel
To breathe
To live you
Dangerously in love

I love you, I love you,
I love you, I love you,
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously in love

All at once - Whitney Houston

All at once
I finally took a moment
And I'm realizing that
You're not coming back
And it finally hit me all at once

All at once
I started counting teardrops
And at least a million fell
My eyes began to swell
And all my dreams were shattered all at once

Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
Though I must face it all alone

Chorus:

All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at once I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once

All at once
I looked around and found that you were with another love
In someone else's arms
And all my dreams were shattered all at once
All at once the smile that used to greet me
Brightened someone else's day
She took your smile away
And left me with just memories all at once

Ever since I met you You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
Though I must face it all alone

Even more Random

I look in your eyes and I can see
We've loved so dangerously
You're not trusting your heart to anyone
You tell me youre gonna play it smart
Were through before we start
But I believe that we've only just begun
When it's this good, there's no saying no
I want you so, I'm ready to go

Chorus:

Through the fire
To the limit, to the wall
For a chance to be with you
I'd gladly risk it all
Through the fire
Through whatever, come what may
For a chance at loving you
I'd take it all the way
Right down to the wire
Even through the fire

I know you're afraid of what you feel
You still need time to heal
And I can help if you'll only let me try
You touch me and something in me knew
What I could have with you
Well I'm not ready to kiss that dream goodbye
When it's this sweet, there's no saying no
I need you so, I'm ready to go...

More Random

If I were you woman and you were my man
You'd have no other woman you'd be weak as a lamb
If you had the strenght to walk out that door
My love would over rule my sense and I'd call you back for more
If I were your woman If I were your woman And you were my man
She tears you down Darling says you're nothing at all
But I'll pick you up Darling when she lets you fall
You're like a diamond but she treats you like glass
Yet you beg her to love you
But me, oh no you don't ask
If I were your woman If I were your woman If I were your woman
Here's what I'd do...I'd never, never, no, no...stop loving you
Life is so crazy And love is unkind
But because she came first will she hang on your mind
You're a part of me And you don't even know it
That I'm what you need But I'm too afraid to show it
If I were your woman If I were your woman If I were your woman
Here's what I would do I'd never, never, no, no stop loving you

More confusion

Why am I feeling blue? I could tell you and you'd think I was being childish! As excited as I am about the new and old occurences of my life, I still tend to feel as if nothing is truly going in my favor. I'm reminded daily of how not intouch I am with what I believed were my truths...

I know that may not make sense right now, but I will enlighten you...

Have you ever seen something that you wanted, someone else had it, and you were told not right now? Well, that's what I am feeling right now. Do you think that is childish?

I see what I want, however it's not at arms length (not within reach), therefore, I can't have it! I feel like a kid in the candy store when the Now and Laters are $.10 but I only have a nickel... I can't get them. I have to settle for the Lemon Heads... it really sucks to be me right now!

I'm a grown ass woman with little girl issues... I am truly disappointed in myself and ashamed at the same time. The real problem is, I'm the one to blame for my misery. I really think that I torture myself, or could I be getting tortured... Maybe I'm being tested to see if I'll break... or will I remain standing...

Everyday I see something that makes my heart ache... something that makes me wish I were the one... something that makes my mind crazy... something that makes me cry... something that makes me sad... something that I want and can't have. I have never been so envious of anyone... never have I ever wanted to be in someone elses shoes... where do these feelings leave me? I'll tell you where! They leave me on the outside looking in... On the outside...

It's cold on the outside! I know how warm it is on the inside. I know how cozy it is in there too. I want to be on the inside. I don't want to be cold anymore. I want to feel the warmth... the tender love of the heart that beats inside, the gentle embrace of the forearms & the caress of the the hands... The endearing forehead kiss that made my body tingle... that's where I want to be...

I want to be the missing link in the chain, that when found, holds the chain together. The link that makes it strong. The link that makes it impossible to break... but only do I want to be that link, if the chain needs and wants me to be.

I am so tired of getting the short end of the stick. I want to be the winner for once. I want to get exactly what I want for a change. I always think about the needs of others before I think of my own and that's why I always end up the loser in situations like this. I want to be the one who gets the one that wants me... if he wants me... I don't want be confused anymore, I want to be happy! So very Happy, with my Guilty Pleasure in tow! I want you!!!

Who I am

Who I am is a daughter, sister and mother.
I love my mother and father both the same - my mother is my best friend. She is the reason that I turned out so great =o) She is the reason that my will is strong. My father is my friend also. I give him credit, only, for my ability to budget my money.
I love my siblings - My brothers are the greatest and my sister is my sister...lol
My children are the greatest - Though they aren't perfect, they are mine and they are my greatest accomplishment. I love all four of them with all of my heart.

Who I am is a friend. My kind heart keeps my friends around. They always know that I'll be there whenever they need me to be, whether or not I speak to them on a daily basis. I keep them all in line and they do the same for me.

Who I am is a lover - I love with my whole heart. I am the one, when you walk into the room or my phone rings and I hear your voice on the other end, whose heart begins to flutter. I love hard and I fight hard for what I love.

Who I am is a woman! Am I perfect? No! But I am mindful of my faults. I am clean, honest and my imperfections make me perfect for you. I love and fear God and I am a believer of fate. I am not like most women. I am true to myself. I'm not afraid to admit when I fail. The truth is, I'm not afraid to step out on that ledge and tell you what I am feeling. I am the woman who let love slip away with the firm belief that one day, love and I would cross paths and we would pick up where we left off... how ever impossible that may be at this very moment, I still believe that it will happen. I don't believe that God would be so cruel as to not let it happen.

Who I am is a Woman of God who is still learning my way. I am traveling the road not taken by many and I know my destination will be reached.

Who I am is Samara - The woman with a kindred soul and a heart of gold. The woman who is so selfless that I consider the feelings of those who mean nothing to me. The woman whose heart is crying out...

Lyrics to one of my favorite songs... Have you ever...?

(chorus)
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever..., have you ever...?

Have you ever been in love...Been in love so bad?
You'd do anything to make them understand.
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away?
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same.
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart but you don't know what to say?
And you don't know where to start...

(chorus)
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever..., have you ever...?

Have you ever found the one you've dreamed of all your life?
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes.
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to only to find that one won't give their heart to you?
Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there and all you can do is wait for that day when they will care?

(chorus)
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever..., have you ever...?

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby?
What do I gotta say to get to your heart?
To make you understand how I need you next to me...
Gotta get you in my world 'Cuz baby I can't sleep...

(repeat chorus twice )

Have you ever?

Personal thoughts

It's 11 o'clock are you gonna touch my spot? I was feeling sexy, but I guess you're not! Never available when I really want it, so what I'm gonna do, is what I got to do... I guess I got to do me. If this is how I got to get mine on, at least I know it won't be wrong. Cause I know how to please me if this is how it's got to be then I think I'll do me, like I do when I'm alone. As long as you ain't trippin you don't even have to worry bout me. You know nobody does it like me. Well, if somebody doesn't come along and handle this permanently I know how to love me!

Had to get it out! good night.. needed to share!

Sea of Emotions

I step down into the water and the water is cold. I'm a pretty good swimmer, but I may need a life preserver for this plunge! I think I may be sinking to the bottom of this sea of unforseen events. I may actually be drowning. I dog paddle to the shallow side of the sea and try to sort out my feelings. What exactly am I feeling? What is the cost? My heart is heavy, I'm overwhelmed by the lack of love I receive. Why am I just now noticing that I don't feel as loved as I want to feel. Why is it now that I am noticing that he has been acting a little different. What kept me from noticing it all before? Oh no, I'm drifting back into the deep end. I know that there is a reason for everything that happens in ones life and I am sure that my questions will be answered soon enough. Why am I so eagar? Where will this go? Is it right? I know it's not, but I sure do want it to be. Where will I end up? Alone? I feel myself sinking again! There has got to be someone out there with my life vest. Are you out there? Are you gonna save me? I don't want to go like this. I have to keep my head above water but the current of this sea of emotions is pulling me under. Why can't I stay afloat? Please God, send me a life preserver. I must hold on a little while longer. I'm trying to swim back to the shallow end, but I'm making no progress. I'm sinking again. I just want to be happy! I want to make someone genuinely happy. How do I know if he really loves me. How do I know that he won't trade me in, as few have done in the past? How do I carry on like this? I'm sinking!

Mi Vida Loca

Hopefully those of you who are reading this won't get confused by my random thoughts.

I have had a rough couple of days! Though I may seem perfectly normal, everythinbg is not always as it seems. I have done nothing for the past 3 days but think of a friend that I have recently reconnected with and I never realized just how much I've missed them until I realized that I can't talk to them when I want to!. Saturday, I spoke to my friend for about 6 hours total... we had lots to catch up on! I was in total bliss... I realized, after speaking with this individual, that I truly miss them. I have had way too much time to reflect on the past and it pisses me off! I'm sad right now because all I want to do is call this person and I can't!

There is this girl in my class that I just want to strangle. I literally want to put a sock in her mouth and gag her til she can't talk anymore... forreal! She talks too much and she talks too much about nothing. We don't care that you breast feed in the training room... we don't care that you have an EBT card... we don't care that you have Child Action.... B**** we really don't care! Just STHU!!!!!

I get tired of coming home to a house that doesn't clean itself... It seems that if I don't clean it, it doesn't get done... seriously, I want to go on strike and only feed me and my baby boy! I have to cook every night and clean... The little girl feels as if I am her maid and so does the Grown man that lives here.... I do it all... mow the lawn, wash the dishes, do laundry, pay bills... feed and bathe the dogs, wash his hair and the kids hair... I may as well be wiping their asses too.... i just want someone to cater to me for a change... I really do!

What in the hell is wrong with some of the people of this world??? I am really tired of feeling as if I am the only normal person here... maybe I'm the one with the issues and everyone else is normal...

I think that I am done venting for the night, however, if something else comes up, you will be sure to hear from me again!

goodnight from the crazy mind of Samara! Love luv!

What is beautiful?

Just because a woman doesn't have a stripper booty, porn star breast, Serena's thighs or because she isn't Beyonce, doesn't mean she isn't beautiful. Just because a man doesn't have Taye Diggs' skin, a body builders body or the looks of a male model, doesn't mean that he is not beautiful.

Growing up, my mother taught me that beauty is skin deep, or beauty comes from within. So because you're considered a perfect 10 doesn't mean you are beautiful. It doesn't mean that you'll always get the guy/girl. Though in some strange way, all of the physical beauty makes a difference, who you are is what counts the most.
The most physically unattractive person could be the most beautiful person in the world. He/she could be intellegent and honest with a heart of gold but would be looked down on because of his/her physical features. Looks aren't everything.
I have yet to find one person who, in our society is considered beautiful, has inner beauty. Those "pretty" boys/girls are so stuck on themselves that they don't believe that they need people skills. Human nature tells them that what they are "workin with" is all they need to get by in the world.

Whatever the hell... People like myself, who are considred, just average, don't have a chance in hell. We sometimes "settle" for what we get. Our hearts, mind and spirit aren't enough to land us that dream job or that high school crush. We have to work extra hard to get what we want out of life. we have to prove that we have what it takes. A "model type" just walks in, shows a little cleavage or leaves a few buttons undone on his shirt, and the job is his/hers... no skills at all.
I would like to just walk down the street sometime and hear someone tell me that I am beautiful or that I have a beautiful spirit. I would like for a person to take the time to get to know me before judging me. No, I am not a model, I don't have a stripper booty or porn star breast. I am no Beyonce, but I am beautiful. I am intellegent with a heart of gold. I may not have a "pretty" face, but my spirit is beautiful. I have the singing voice of an angel and a kindred soul.

So again I ask, what is beautiful? The answer is, I AM BEAUTIFUL!

and en espanol


Creciendo, mi madre me enseñó que la belleza es la piel de profundidad, o la belleza viene de dentro. Así que porque se le considera un perfecto 10 no quiere decir que son hermosas. Esto no significa que usted siempre recibirá el chico / chica. Aunque en alguna extraña manera, todos los de la belleza física hace la diferencia, que usted es lo que cuenta son los más.
La más atractiva físicamente persona podría ser la persona más hermosa del mundo. Él / ella podría ser intellegent y honestos con un corazón de oro, sino que se miró hacia abajo debido a sus características físicas. Parece no lo son todo.

¿Qué es hermoso?

Sólo porque una mujer no tiene un separador botín, estrellas porno de mama, la Serena o muslos porque no es de Beyonce, no significa que no es bello. Sólo porque un hombre no tiene Taye Diggs la piel, un órgano u organismo constructores el aspecto de un modelo masculino, no significa que no es bello.

Yo todavía tienen que encontrar una persona que, en nuestra sociedad se considera bello, tiene belleza interior. Los "bastante" los niños / niñas son tan pegado a sí mismos que no creen que necesitan gente. La naturaleza humana que lo que les dice que están "trabajando con" es todo lo que necesitan para pasar en el mundo.

Cualquiera que sea el infierno ... La gente como yo, que son considred, justo término medio, no tienen una oportunidad en el infierno. A veces "resolver" para lo que tenemos. Nuestros corazones, mente y espíritu no son suficientes para que la tierra nos sueño trabajo o la escuela secundaria que aplastar. Tenemos que trabajar muy duro para conseguir lo que queremos de la vida. tenemos que demostrar que tenemos lo que se necesita. Un "modelo" sólo en paseos, muestra un poco de escisión o deja un deshacer algunos botones de su camisa, y el trabajo es él / ella ... no en todas las competencias.

Así que vuelvo a preguntar, qué es hermoso? La respuesta es, SOY HERMOSOS!

Me gustaría simplemente caminar por la calle y escuchar en algún momento alguien me diga que soy hermosa, o que tengo un espíritu hermoso. Me gustaría que una persona tome el tiempo para llegar a conocer antes de juzgar a mí. No, soy no es un modelo, no tengo una stripper botín o estrella del porno de mama. Beyonce no soy, pero soy hermosa. intellegent estoy con un corazón de oro. yo no puede tener una "bonita" cara, pero mi espíritu se hermoso. Tengo la voz de un ángel y un alma afín.

WTF???

To begin, I just want to say: If you are a parent, plese don't be offended by anything that I say here...I'm just doing my BlogThing!!! But if the shoe fits...

God blesses us with the children that we have, so why in the hell would you treat them so badly? Our kids trust us, more than anyone else, yet some of us betray them and let them look and feel unwanted. Now why would we do that? Why is it that some moms will go shopping, spend a grip and when they step out the house, they are looking all Hollywood and their kids look like the "Feed the Children" kids? Why do some mother's go to the hair shop or have a friend or relative hook up their hair and their kids look like little orphans? Haven't had their hair combed or cut in months!!! WTF???

Some parents sit at home all day and don't do a damned thing with their kids. If the children are school aged, they get sent to school looking crazy, with no lunch or lunch money. If they're too young to go to school, they run around the house in a pissy and/or sh**** diaper, pull-up or drawers, trying to find something to eat because mommy and/or daddy are too busy or just too damned lazy to get up and fix them something to eat. The house is dirty and sometimes disease ridden because they're too lazy to clean... WTF???

I really have a problem with the mother who does go to work and make a decent living, but has no time for her children. She talks to make herself look good in front of others, but in reality she is as fake as the nails, the hair and the jewelry she wears... I know that phones and computers are for communication purposes, but damn... there is life outside of the phone and the computer. How dare she get off work, go home to her children but talk on the damned phone and/or be on the internet all night... Hello! Don't you have children??? Have they had dinner yet? Have they bathed??? Do you even know where they are??? Are they getting enough sleep? Hell, are you getting enough sleep? Why am I combing your kids hair and picking out their clothes so that they look cared for? WTF???

What I am saying here is: Care for your children. There are thousands of men and women in the world who want children, but are unable to produce them. Play with your children. Read to them. Stop buying all of that expensive garbage so that they think they have something. Things can't replace a parents love and affection. Your children will grow up resenting you if you don't show them the love and affection that they need to grow. Children are very aware... they live by example. If you have many men, your girls will think that's ok and your boys will be whoremongers. If you place everything else before your children, they will mistreat their own when they're old enough to have them. Put your children in sports programs or other recreational events... they can never have too many friends... hell, they already don't have one in you!!!

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Honestly, in my opinion, in life you can’t be mad at someone else for something you could not control. You can't fault me for your mistakes. You cant blame me for your losses, and you can not hate me for being me! What you can do is re-evaluate yourself and try to figure out what went wrong, or what you didn’t do right, and hope that next time you dont end up the loser, cause unfortanetly, this time around, you LOST!
But then again...
Maybe you can be mad at me for taking control of the situation you couldn’t control. Maybe it is my fault for not making the same mistakes you did, and being the better WOMAN! Maybe your loss, is a result of my gain, and maybe you can hate me for being such an outstanding, selfless, non-egotistical, caring, loving and did I mention sexy individual. Now that I think about it... it is my fault for making it so hard for you to compete.
Now this message is not targeted towards anyone specifically, however if while reading it you felt as though it was aimed at you.... all I can say is... If the shoe fits...